Patience In Recovery

did it today.
All by myself
I didn’t worry about today at all.
No urges to binge or purge.
I haven’t felt something like this before.

Ate some fruit

After Panera and I’m not going to touch my stomach or body check after I eat.


Food is not my enemy, it is nourishment for my body.
I need to remember that and be good to my body.
Better body means a more clear mind.
A better focus.
I can do anything.

Spent some quality time with the family and chased my nephew around for about 30mins😊 My sister and I are going to run an errand together now. I needed this change. Hello October, we were made for each other.
I feel fine

Even after the break up last night
In fact, I feel better
I don’t feel anxiety or pressured to love when I know I’m not capable of feeling right now

I re arranged my room today
And I’m at Panera Bread getting a salad to go

Tonight I’m going to watch Dexter and cuddle my cat and eat Panera

Probably doing some rituals and meditator to start October off right.

I broke up with my ex promising to focus on getting better
And tonight I will do that.


Zzzquil will help too to make me fall asleep early 👌👌

Smile for me today, everybody.

HOLY CRAP IT’S OCTOBER
3am

We need to stop meeting like this

I did it

I ended it
It had to be done
I need to get better now

Yess

Yess

Rainy days off🍂🍁🎃

Rainy days off🍂🍁🎃

New socks and did my nails ☺️
Watching Dexter now until Panera 

I’m really nervous about the decision I made after contemplating it for a few weeks now.

I don’t want to be careless with him anymore
He doesn’t deserve it.

I just need to get myself together and work on that before I could carry on with something long term like he wants.

I’m sorry I can’t feel right now.

New socks and did my nails ☺️
Watching Dexter now until Panera

I’m really nervous about the decision I made after contemplating it for a few weeks now.

I don’t want to be careless with him anymore
He doesn’t deserve it.

I just need to get myself together and work on that before I could carry on with something long term like he wants.

I’m sorry I can’t feel right now.

4am

I’ve been eating and purging since 1am

Junk food

Until I pass out


Taking zzzquil later and sleeping in for as long as I can

I am so sorry to all the people I hurt while I was hurting.
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Lizzie has been fed and I brought her baby gifts as well as a candle for Lizzie’s mom😊
I’ve never been so grateful to meet such lovely people.

Lizzie has been fed and I brought her baby gifts as well as a candle for Lizzie’s mom😊
I’ve never been so grateful to meet such lovely people.

You're the greatest
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You made me smile 😊 you’re awesome